I'm back. I've been 'back' for a while, but a friend told me last week that they missed this blog, so I thought I could start writing again.
Since early April, I've lost my sobriety, my health (temporarily), my business, my part-time job, and I was evicted. I'm now in recovery again, working another part-time job, and living at the Salvation Army.
I think the important questions are, "What am I learning from this experience?" and, "What am I doing differently?"
I don't think one blog post can cover either question fully; however, one of the big things I'm learning is thoroughness, and its importance to a strong recovery. In addition to doing the things I need to do daily to stay in recovery from alcoholism, I am also now doing the things I need to do daily to stay in recovery from depression. That is the most challenging for me right now - I have difficulty separating my disorder or condition from me, and when I'm in it, I tend to believe the thoughts I have. That is dangerous, and it imperils my sobriety. So, with a lot of support, I am learning what I need to do to stay in recovery, and I am learning what it means to be consistent and thorough.
I've been sober now since May 21st, 2015, and it has been a busy six, nearly seven, weeks. It feels more like 6 months. I still have hope that I can learn to enjoy this lifetime, and to live a life that has purpose and meaning. That seems like a tall order, but, taken in little chunks, and done with guidance, it's probably do-able.
We'll see.
